I wonder where I am going to be standing ten years from now. And what about my family and friends? How are things going to be different ten years from now for everybody? Thinking about it reminds me of just how ephemeral all this is and how affected we are by society. Ten years from now, I see myself possibly married and with children. But what about all the things in between? What about the short term events? How does me finishing up this chemistry homework play into my future ten years from now?
How linear the plans for our lives are. We are to go to school and do our best. Why? After having it pounded into my head ever since I could understand language, it is so I can grow up and live a happy life. So happy means having a family? Getting a job? Going on vacation to give me a taste of what non conformity might taste like? I’m all for a family and getting a job. I just don’t like how we all expect the same general things out of life. Isn’t there more to all this than just getting that A now so we can start making lots and lots of money in the future? The time from now and November 2, 2021 will most definitely be filled with many lovely events and experiences. But thinking about it now, all I can see is the end goal. The means by which that goal is reached is just void in my mind, and that kind of scares me because it reminds me how numbered my days are. I better write a will now…
Note: HAHAHAHA. One of the recommended tags proposed by WordPress was “Depression.” Oh noes. It’s probably my self-diagnosed S.A.D kicking in.
Having a career and a family is not exactly the end of your life either. In fact that will probably be done by the time you reach 50% of your life. What will happen after that? What if you don’t like your career, what if you can’t have kids? There are a lot of unknowns.
SO I recommend you start writing a mission statement for your life. What is that you absolutely want to accomplish with your life, regardless of how you get there. What do you want to know about yourself and the world? What difference do you want to make?
Or another way to think about it – How do you want to get there? Not the exact steps, but what kind of journey will you have? What types of things will you invest in along the way, personally, spiritually, relationally? How will you change as a person in 10 years? How will you accomplish that growth?
Today is the time to start making that plan. What are the most important things in your life? How can you keep the most important things the most important things?
im still struggle with this wondering if i’m going to school for God or is it for myself to make good money and live an ordinary life…I think i came to the conclusion that if God calls me then i will drop everything that i’m doing and do what He wants me to do whenever that may be.