Blegh. I don’t know.
One thing I do know is that I love this tree. It’s just so beautiful. I want to be an arborist and just frolic among the things that understand me. But I want to be there right now,wherever this tree is and just sit under it and nap. When I wake up, I’m going to just day dream and ponder, and slowly sip a nice cool glass of milk/beer if I’m 21+ by this time.
I just feel a wee bit sad because this weekend is a big one filled with busyness, and I just feel major dread looming over me at the prospect of having to finish things. I probably have kakorrhaphiophobia. I really think I do though, I guess that’s just the way I am. I expect a lot from me, but at the same time I want to be relaxed and “chill.” It’s hard sometimes to deny my true nature and find that balance between how much of the inherent me I want to keep and how much I want to purge. Either way, I’ll get through this weekend just fine and I’ll look back on it all next weekend with content.
On a side note, I had the wonderful privilege in leading the youth group’s worship night just a few hours ago. The feeling of knowing that you’re worshiping with a room full of others is something that is extraordinary and indescribable. I’m happy to be where I am now, and I just have to keep in mind that I’m uber blessed.
